It's even more complicated than that.Can I be honest with you? (Actually you don’t have a choice, but I understand it’s etiquette to ask.)
You’re overthinking, too much in your head, and have been brainwashed.
![Grinning face with sweat :sweat_smile: 😅](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f605.png)
It's literally why it takes me forever to accomplish anything (including writing this). Everything I make has to be as good as I possibly can make it. This is both a curse and a gift with some pretty cool and unique outcomes that do stroke my pride.
In trading stocks, the depth is endless in trying to wonder what the rest of the world is thinking on top of all this new stuff I learned here first. But in doing so, my mental model of the world has changed significantly.
![Hundred points :100: 💯](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f4af.png)
There is change in the air now. I'm looking more into the family and the Arts, ya know. Maybe I can channel it there for a while. It's pretty cool when the skills used to make things can easily turn into art.